Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

so everyone’s heard of the death of the 6 youths caused by drug overdose during the FMFA(?)

social networks have been buzzing with criticisms and comments.
people sighing and shaking their heads upon hearing the news.

i know it’s inevitable to have that (yknow what i mean) thought. I personally have crossed that situation as well.

STOP.

clear everything in your mind

and ask yourself.

who am i to deny that Allah is The Most Merciful?

Husnuzon. what you see may not be the real picture. i mean, c’mon. i believe almost everyone got deceived by Jasmine Johari, including Awani and me. what has been reported by the medias are mere facts. dont quickly judge anything based on what you’ve been told. yes, we have our own perceptions, but again, husnuzon. brush off that negative thoughts.

you never know if they got to repent that very final second before Izrail took their lives.

and once Allah have accepted their repentance everything in the sin account will be cleared out. EVERYTHING. which technically means they are just as pure as babies.

and compare that with us, who are soooo busy being judgmental and whatnot. well…

just stop being so judgmental. keep on making du’a for them, keep on making du’a for ourselves and our loved ones, for du’a is the weapon of the Believers.

leave the judging to Allah. dont be too consumed by your point of view.

Assalamu’alaikum

so in my previous entry i have stated that i am currently on a long leave, and it has got longer since the results came out last month, and alhamdulillah i am eligible to continue my study  to uni level.

and that extra time to waste? HAHAHAHAHAHA

i’ve been busy.

which is a great thing, because i just simply have no time to waste.
well actually i do, but not as much as i have expected.

im all occupied by activities, especially our new club, which has become a quarter of me. The endless meetings, discussions, this that yada yada, and all gone the imaginations of me chilling in my room goyang kaki watching aku ada wali and giggling my heart out. honestly i have never been this productive my whole life, which.. alhamdulillah, is another achievement.

my body clock however is kinda messed up now. my free time is almost always occupied with hours of nap and excessive eating and constant weariness. i couldnt help looking forward to the break we have planned, and as usual, some kind of epiphany hit me.

i remember how once a friend of mine told me how her grandmother complained on how tired she was with the endless chores. “sudah mati kali baru buleh berehat?” she said. the answer to the supposedly theoretical question, however,is ironically YES. this world isnt a resting place. we are constantly being tested by Al- Khaliq both consciously and unconsciously, be it with hardship or ease. Allah tests us with hardship to see if we will turn to him to seek for His help, and He tests us with ease to see if we will thank Him for granting us ease, and it wont stop unless we’re dead. well, life is a constant battle right?

The life after death is directly proportional to how we did in the world. think you will gain the highest Jannah just like that? the real success is attaining Jannah, and the sweetness of success can only be felt after tiring yourself with selfless efforts. tired of life? tiring life? thats normal. dont give up just yet. even the Burj Khalifa didnt finish in just one day. work hard for the afterlife, there’s a reason why Allah has provided us with a massively long list of ibadah. gather as much good deeds as you can, so you can rest peacefully in your grave later in life.

may the odds be ever in our favour. xx

Assalamu’alaikum.

AAAAAAaaand it’s 2014! time flies so fast when you use it wisely, but it flies faster when you waste it lol. New year comes again Alhamdulillah. All praise goes to Allah who has given us opportunity to continue living on His earth.

im pretty sure im gonna have a hard time writing down the number 2014 on anything that needs a date, because my 2013 is virtually extended since im on a long leave. result will be out in about a month and i will be away from formal education for (HOPEFULLY!!) 6-8 months or so, sooo yeah. extra time to waste. NOT!

i believe this doesnt happen to me alone. looking back at the past years, i wish i hadnt wasted so much time on useless things or activities, because i  have realised now that i have been missing some, if not most, of the crucial parts of my life. i sometimes ask myself what have i done with my life in averagely 3 intonations, and although it gives several answers depending on the tone, numerically it’s either negative or just a bit more than 0. and it’s not about me alone, but everybody else. why be bothered you might ask. but, why not? right?

believe it or not even our tiniest action may trigger reactions in some ways from people. at the age of 17, what have i done to people around me so far? im still searching for the answer actually, or better yet, im making the answer. 17 years, almost half of it spent/wasted on unnecessary things, and only at 16-17 do i realise that many things have slipped through my fingers. fortunately im not too late.

we are never too young to contribute to our communities, my dearest friends. we arent gonna live forever, and death is just right behind you. you can never promise that you will still be alive tomorrow. try your best to not waste even a jiffy of time granted by Allah to you. dont wait until you are “old enough” or worse  -dead. dont be another burden on someone else’s shoulder, even your parents.

Assalamualaikum.

the phrase has been keeping me on my feet lately as things seem to be falling into the wrong places.
when life gives you lemon(s), sometimes you cant just simply make lemonade. its just not that simple. demanding for chocolate is plain ungrateful, unless you do it nicely and politely.

life is a constant battle. you have to fight and sacrifice to make things right. even for a little bit, because every tiny, minute detail matters. i’ve learned that in order to cope with it you must know the nature. but sometimes its just overwhelming that ending your life seems to be the only solution. well actually it isnt. broaden up your mind and see the limitless horizon.

life is not easy if you are not willing to make it easy. again, life is a constant battle.

keep fighting. be strong.
you are not the only one in this world who is battling to live up to whatever the thingamajigg is.
whenever things are not going to their desired ways put your hand on your chest and say to yourself,this is life, and life is a constant battle.