Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

At one point at the beginning of your journey in seeking for His blessings I believe you have this kind of spirit that could burn the sky, and this urge to invite everyone you love to have a taste of loving Him. At least I experienced it.

But of course, Jannah is not cheap, and only those who are really striving for it deserve it. On this road, not everyone is willing to face the challenges, and sometimes in the end, the only thing that you can do is to pray for them who opt to take another route.

I had the pleasure of sitting together with a friend over a dinner. From talking about their local food, the conversation shifted to how their student community is here. Frankly speaking we are not even close, but she is this type of person that makes you feel comfortable to open up to her. She comes from a country with a non-Muslim majority, and here in Turkey, majority of their students are Muslims.  She mentioned that the student body has just recently started making halaqah groups for their students in all provinces in Turkey. I asked how their halaqah is, what is included and whatnots, and she explained. Her group is handled by 3 sisters who are studying post-graduate in several branches of Islamic Studies. It was not the first time I hang out with her, and I know a bit of her background. She comes from a family with a strong religious background which quite explains her, she spent a part of her studying years in religious schools and really, her akhlaq is admirable.

To my surprise, however, she admitted her inability to express her thoughts and opinions in their session, like how this certain verse touches her, and how this verse makes her feel like this and that. She just can’t. Even in the halaqah in her previous schools she faced the same issue. But at the end, she said that the only thing she is able to do is by expressing through akhlaq.

Good akhlaq is what we are lacking nowadays. Akhlaq covers many aspects such as the way we speak, the way we dress, what we talk about, and many others, including, in this modern age, what we post on social media. Akhlaq is what makes the da’wah spreads effectively, because good akhlaq builds trust. Whatever you are trying to prove and whatever it is that you are trying to preach to people, without good akhlaq, it will never touch any heart, because what is in your heart will be reflected through your akhlaq, and only a good heart can touch other hearts.

The best example of such is of course our beloved Rasulullah SAW. With his akhlaq, he managed to leave his legacy of sahabah who inherited his akhlaq and further spread Islam until it ruled 2/3 of the world, and in the Surah Al-Ahzab : 21

There has certainly been for you in the Messenger of Allah an excellent pattern for anyone whose hope is in Allah and the Last Day and [who] remembers Allah often.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamu’alaikum wrt wbt.

I can’t really remember when exactly i started writing (which does not include facebook statuses), but it was around the time when blogging was like one of the craze at that time, probably when I was 13 or so. Around that time too I started to create quite highly imaginative stories, inspired by stories I came across. Time ticked, and I developed. my old blog has been deleted due to inactivity and nonsensical contents but mostly the latter. I started fresh with this new page, with the hope that it can benefit anyone.

New things, however, come with new challenges. Have i talked about insecurity and lack of confidence? One thing about realising what you have become is sometimes we are too afraid of the expectations and reactions we might get from our surrounding. I don’t know to what extent is this true but it is I think kind of so me. So many things have been kept to vanish and some even have been kept unsolved. Actually, the only expectation we can’t meet is our own expectation of ourselves. It’s either because we put a mental barrier between ourselves and our expectations or our expectation is just too high and in the end we feel sorry for ourselves. Guess what? We don’t have to. We don’t have to be sorry for things we cant do. We don’t have to be sorry for not being able to go straight to beyond our limit.

We do have our own limits. but we can expand it if we are willing to. Potential is like a space confined by brick walls. You can walk within it but you can’t pass through the wall without having to break it, but of course you need rebuild the wall again in case you tore it down to clear the mess. Hence, utilise whatever is available within that space. You will be able to create more and in the meantime too you will naturally expand the boundary and adds more space according to your necessity. No rush, and no worry, because that space is yours. No one else can walk in it as fabulously as you do.

assalamulaikum

Assalamualaikum

Assalamualaikum

so my journey today started with  rain and jb’s next to you. a good combo huh?

rain is often used to symbolise gloom, sadness etc. the perfect background for the break up scene in a movie.well sometimes for the getting-back-together scene.

living in an equatorial climate rain is something that i usually anticipate, except after it has been dark for a few days straight.

well, rain is magical. it can be a nuisance sometimes. you cant properly dry your laundry outside. you have to switch the light on. this and that. but at the same time it gives you this comfortable cool feeling. you dont have to water your garden.

it’s good as much as it’s bad.
the gloom helps you.
just as much as problems do

the sky might be crying,but it could be of joy.