i made myself do this

it’s been a while. im in the middle of my A level exam, so yeah. do wish me luck! my next papers are socio 3 and psychology 3 (my other subjects are maths and gp, which i have done in the last 3 weeks).
things arent really going well for me,physiologically and mentally. last 2 weeks i kinda messed up my body clock after having my socio 2. well what happened was Brunei was the host for the ASEAN summit thing, and the events coincided with the cambridge public exams, so the timetable had to be edited. the usual morning timetable which all this time started at 9, got shifted to 8, the afternoon sesh (usually 2 pm) shifted to 1 pm and the friday afternoon sesh (2.30) got freaking shifted to night. my socio happened to be on friday night at 8-9.30. plus a bit of delay and a  visit (ahem) to CBTL, i finally reached home at around almost 11 and ended up sleeping way past midnight, and i havent really recovered until today. not kidding.


what actually drags my willpower to its peak to write tonight is the conversation i recently had with my cousin..


yep, we talked about love. what else do you expect can fill the minds of teenagers nowadays right? WRONG! well you are not wrong per se. the conversation was initially about something else, but yknow, conversation. 

heartbreak, personally speaking, might be my best experience. i know it is an oxymoron but really, i mean it. it opens up your mind more, it gives your brain more power and ability to decide for you. its not as bad as you think. yes, that psychological pain you have to endure hurts as much as getting punched in the face. whatever happens time heals all wound.

what is so special about this little thing called love really?

to love and to be loved are actually naturally engineered in us. so if you feel like you have the butterflies flying violently in your stomach that you actually feel like you are gonna throw up monster butterflies with piranha teeth but cute at the same time (okay whateverrr), dont panic or throw up or pass out. its just your hormone

basically thats why its most of the time a big deal. its natural. evidence:

Ad-Dhariyat (49) :  And of all things We created two mates; perhaps you will remember.

but of all love (please stick to the common mindset) i see some teenagers are taking advantage on their love. it ails me to my tummy. some even treat it like the top of their priority list. its plain ballistic that sometimes it reaches the extent of suicide.


its almost 12.40 and sleep is what i need.
so let me just conclude with one of the famous hadith.

The Prophet (saw) advised to: “Take benefit of five before five: Your youth before your old age, your health before your sickness, your wealth before your poverty, your free time before you are preoccupied, and your life before your death(Narrated by Ibn Abbas and reported by Al Hakim)

dont be swayed by the beauty, because it may end uglier than sin.

note: i have decided to publish this first, insyaAllah i”ll try to improve this later


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